Jen's Journal

8:25 p.m. - 2006-07-26
Good News!
Hey, all! How's it going? Sorry I haven't been around much lately. Which I already stated that I wouldn't be, but I had hopes of writing something sooner than this..but I guess this'll have to do.

So, everything's been going good for me. My leg strength is finally starting to come back..and I'm able to walk pretty much by myself without any support. I'm still kinda shaky, and I can't walk for long distances, but I'm ok.

I'm gonna go out next week to drive. Have someone go with me, until I get my driving ability back, y'know, just to be on the safe side?

Then, it's back to College for me in September. I'm so excited and scared at the same time..but it should be fine. I made a lay-a-way for some school supplies. I really only needed some notebooks, a daily planner (since I have appointments out the ass), and a lock for my locker. And I laid away 1 pair of pants, 1 shirt, and 1 bra..so I'm good.

12:11 p.m. - 2006-07-10
Blah!
So, I'm around today. I was bored and had nothing to do, so I figured what the hell.

I gotta go shopping Wednesday for my Grandma's birthday. It's in less than a week, but it's not Wednesday. She'll be 63!

I already know what she wants. She wants some new make-up, so I'm gonna pick her up a few things -- a new compact, eyebrow pencil, and lipstick. That's all she wears. So, I'll pick out some colors for her.

It's weird -- I don't wear make-up, but I know how to shop for it. Probably b/c I used to wear it. I'm thinking of wearing it again. I just don't know if I wanna fuck with it. Although, it would be nice to cover my scars, especially on my neck and my left eye.

Speaking of scars, I finally found out why it bothers me to wear a bra anymore. Under my left tit, there's a huge ass scar from where they put the chest tube in. So, I guess my bra rubs that area, and in return, causes me to hate wearing one. LOL, but I do..only when I wear tank tops, that is. B/c I've lost atleast 80% of my boobs. I went from a 44C to a 36AA. Talk about small fuckers. DAMN!

Ohh, yeah, I got my hair cut. It's really short. If you look up Halle Berry with short hair, you'll know what my hair looks like. It looks decent.

Anyhow, I'm out. Peace.

2:04 p.m. - 2006-07-07
Uh, yeah..ho.
Yeah, so, I won't be around too much. Well, I mean, I'll update this from time to time, but I won't be on any messengers. I deleted all of my accounts. However, you can still e-mail me with the e-mail listed under contacts.

Some ho has been breaking into all of my accounts, and I just don't need it. But said ho went too far and broke into my isp account, which is in my Grandma's name, and she has decided to contact the police on this matter. And I can only say that I don't blame her. No one wants anyone to have their information. So, hey ho, say buh bye to the outside world for a lil while. Peace, ho.

2:59 a.m. - 2006-07-07
Bullshit.
Man, I can't sleep for shit. I have so much shit running through my mind right now. It's like a fucking maze in this head of mine.

I don't know. I think I'm just sick of idiots and fucktards, ya know? It seems like everyone's out to get someone. And it's stupid, but when someone fucks with me, that's when they get fucked by me. So, watch out, bitch -- you know who you are and I know damn well you read this.

Other than that, I'm going to some parties this weekend. I wanna dance so fucking bad, but I can't stand long enough. What a crock. But it's only a matter of time before I'm out partying again. I'm working as hard as I possibly can to get back on my feet. I'm starting to walk more without my walker. It's a royal bitch, but hey, atleast I'm trying. Ohh, but does it hurt...

Well, I'm out. Gonna try to get some sleep. Peace.

12:13 p.m. - 2006-07-06
Yep.
Yeah, so I know the link in the last post is broken. Well, not technically, the pic just won't show up til ya click on it. Beats me.

I swear I was like a blow fish this morning. I was taking a shower and my bandage starting coming undone from the top on my stomach, and so the hole was filling up with water. So, I'd push on the bandage and water would pop out of it like a damn waterfall. It was kewl, though.

I have some appointments today and I'm supposed to be leaving in a few mins, but I was bored, so I figured what the hell, I'll get online for a bit.

I've been super happy lately. It's been raining like mad around here, and I just love it.

It's the best time to take a nap and just hang out with the one you love.

P.S. Yeah, I don't have comments. It's a paid thingie, sorry. Just use the contacts I listed if you have something to say. I'll gladly answer you. Peace.

12:13 p.m. - 2006-07-06
Yep.
Yeah, so I know the link in the last post is broken. Well, not technically, the pic just won't show up til ya click on it. Beats me.

I have some appointments today and I'm supposed to be leaving in a few mins, but I was bored, so I figured what the hell, I'll get online for a bit.

I've been super happy lately. It's been raining like mad around here, and I just love it.

It's the best time to take a nap and just hang out with the one you love.

Happy 4th of July, y'allz. Hope you guys have a good one.

I don't think we're doing anything, since most of my family has to work. But that's alright -- we're going to see fireworks on the 7th. Should work.

Right now, I'm in the process of fixing my phone. I have to wait for my Step Dad to come over, b/c I can't get on the floor, to reach the cords and such -- he'll have to do it.

I just have this...feeling..that someone I miss, has called my phone many times, and I have not been up to answer it. I'm usually right when it comes to these kind of things, so we'll see. Wish me luck!

Happy 4th of July!

8:55 a.m. - 2006-07-03
Long Ass Day.
Man, I had a long ass day yesterday. It's especially long when you're not exactly up to par.

First, we went to my cousin Chris' graduation party, and were there for about 3.5-4 hours, which wasn't too bad, considering I was sitting in the shade with a tank top and capris on.

Then, later that nite, we out to see the fireworks. They were a-ok. Nothing to brag about. But I had a nice time, all the same.

I was supposed to go to see fireworks on Saturday, but I wasn't feeling too well, so I bailed. However, now, I wish that I hadn't bailed, because these fireworks were over the river, and I guess you'd see 'em in the sky, then you'd see 'em in the water. Sounds pretty to me.

My dog woke me up this morning. She has a habit of sleeping on the pillow next to me, with her head on the pillow, and her body under the blankets, which is fine. However, this morning, while she was sleeping, she was crying her eyes out. Poor baby was having a bad dream. Aww..=*(

Well, I gotta go. Find something to do. Peace.

10:55 p.m. - 2006-07-01
God Damn It!
I swear I hate fucking idiots. I wish they'd just leave me the hell alone. All I'm trying to do is live my life the way I wanna live it.

But people...damn, they just can't seem to understand the meaning of 'Leave me the hell alone! I swear it's horrible. Said people, in my opinion, have no common sense what-so-ever. All's I can say is this...once I get back on my feet, I'll show 'em what common fucking sense is.

6:37 p.m. - 2006-07-01
Working.

Hey, all. I know I've been gone for a hot minute, but I'm working on coming back, so give me some time and I should have everything rollin' again shortly.

EDIT: Finally, after 7 months, I am back. Not much has changed around here. I wanted to do some major revamping and such, but my heart's not in it right now. Maybe sometime soon, though. We shall see.

I have myspace now, get to know me, and you can add me. Hmm...well, I don't have anything else to say at the moment. I'll be back to write something in a few days, which that entry will most likely be private. If you want the p/w, e-mail me or leave me a comment.

Peace & Love,
Jen